Moonless Nights
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My personal channel, largely replacing those I used to have on other systems, back in the client-server days.
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
This channel is mostly for just writing personal thoughts about inter-personal relationships, technical opinions, the direction of humanity and its cultures, and a search for purpose, more broadly.
Personally, I am a software developer (systems programming, if you were interested). In my personal life, I am polyamorous (however you feel about that). Socially, I like to associate with the goth scene (which I have done since early 2003).
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 23, 2025, 10:58:18 p.m.)
Yeah, that seems to be where it currently lives. If you have access, I recommend checking it out since I did definitely find it engaging.
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 23, 2025, 10:55:37 p.m.)
Watched "End of Evangelion", today. It is definitely very good and I will need to think about it a bit and watch it again in a couple of days to feel as though I have a reasonable grasp of it.
I have heard people talk about these different [...]
I have heard people talk about these different [...]
Re: Work and writing update (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:52:15 p.m.)
Good to hear that the new job is seeming more engaging. Hopefully it becomes even more interesting once you have more to do on your own.
Aww, Korey sounds like he is doing well and still being energetic, at 16. That is good to hear. He is such a [...]
Aww, Korey sounds like he is doing well and still being energetic, at 16. That is good to hear. He is such a [...]
Re: Not sure if health concern or boredom (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:48:20 p.m.)
Well, I would be hesitant to immediately ignore criticisms from others since they can be illuminating. That said, many people lob such criticisms for their own benefit, not to help you understand yourself.
An honest person or a good friend is [...]
An honest person or a good friend is [...]
Re: Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 22, 2025, 5:45:16 p.m.)
This was very good and I like it when you consume some media and you feel a need to research perspectives on the ideas or, back when this was possible, talk about the ideas raised with others. Luckily, this is the kind media people are still [...]
Neon Genesis Evangelion (on Oct. 18, 2025, 3:08:25 p.m.)
After finding the Blu-Ray for this series for rent at Bay Video (amazing place, by the way), I decided to finally start watching this old anime people reference all the time as one of the greats (up there with others from that era, like Ghost in the [...]
Not sure if health concern or boredom (on Oct. 14, 2025, 7:06:33 p.m.)
It seems as though I always feel tired, through much of the afternoon and evening, most days. The strange thing is that I can easily go out and walk for a few hours, feeling completely awake and comfortable while passing everyone I walk past, then [...]
Re: War is over! (on Oct. 14, 2025, 6:51:19 p.m.)
We will see how long this one lasts. It is a good first step but, unfortunately, it seems like that war has constantly been starting/stopping for much of my life.
I fear that, unless the underlying participants in the conflict change, this cycle [...]
I fear that, unless the underlying participants in the conflict change, this cycle [...]
Re: Terry Fox Run (on Oct. 11, 2025, 1:08:17 a.m.)
Nice to see that this is still going strong. I remember this being an annual tradition back when I was in elementary school and it was a good idea so it is good to see it is still there.
Mood and Gazing into the Future (on Oct. 9, 2025, 2:42:45 a.m.)
Looking back on my life, I realize that much of how I feel within a given point in time is based on what I think is on the horizon.
I suspect that this is ultimately related to how I have never been a "happy person". It is probably also why I have [...]
I suspect that this is ultimately related to how I have never been a "happy person". It is probably also why I have [...]
Re: Photo from poetry reading. (on Oct. 9, 2025, 2:23:12 a.m.)
I hope that you enjoyed giving the reading, at least. It sounds like a nice way to get out demonstrate your creative output.
Nuit Blanche and the last warm days (on Oct. 5, 2025, 9:47:00 p.m.)
I tried to get out to see a bit of Nuit Blanche, last night, but I was tired and it was crowded so I didn't go far. Really, just up and down the street nearest me which was hosting some of it. Oddly, most of what I saw were just video displays and [...]
Social "fit", egg shell fears, and specific linguistic irritations (on Oct. 4, 2025, 4:05:20 p.m.)
Over the past few years (well, several really, but more acutely in recent years), I have been getting a general sense that I no longer "fit" anywhere, socially. I used to feel at home among software developers or goths, and I felt like I was [...]
Re: Tubby Nugget Phonecall (on Sep. 23, 2025, 9:06:33 a.m.)
Yeah, the ones you have posted here are good: Simple, short, and cute.
I am ok. I hope that things are good on your end.
I am ok. I hope that things are good on your end.
Pet Peeves in Non-technical Data Science (on Sep. 23, 2025, 8:51:58 a.m.)
I was watching some video talking about survey results related to Project Zomboid Build42 direction today and it reminded me of something I have found annoying for a while: Lack of standard deviation when discussing scored survey results.
I have [...]
I have [...]
That time of the year? (on Sep. 9, 2025, 1:21:24 a.m.)
For whatever reason, I have been incredibly tired all today. Part of this is probably that I slept poorly last night (probably due to being tired all yesterday) but I wonder if the rest of it is related to the cold weather, my mental state, or [...]
Re: Building Programming Languages (on Sep. 9, 2025, 1:16:45 a.m.)
Thinking about "what is a programming language" gets more interesting whenever you also ask "what is an interpreter" and you eventually realize interesting things like how a user interface is an interpreter for the language of human actions. [...]
Re: "Let 'em Cook" versus Becoming an n-degree Meta-tool (on Sep. 9, 2025, 1:08:36 a.m.)
Yeah, most of the push to make things "safe" is usually just a push to create a police state or some other dystopian control system.
They say that the ends justify the means but, not only do I think that is a dangerous way of thinking, I also don't [...]
They say that the ends justify the means but, not only do I think that is a dangerous way of thinking, I also don't [...]
Re: Not a logical solution?!? (on Sep. 9, 2025, 1:05:52 a.m.)
Yeah, it is small and cute.
"Let 'em Cook" versus Becoming an n-degree Meta-tool (on Sep. 4, 2025, 4:56:55 p.m.)
An idea which has been bothering me lately is the question of how much of what happens within public visibility represents an actual attempt to make something happen versus an attempt to make the anti-something happen.
To sketch what I mean, [...]
To sketch what I mean, [...]
What is the missing connection? (on Aug. 23, 2025, 3:44:15 p.m.)
Last night's outing was reasonably good but I still felt that same unpleasantness in the back of my mind, dragging me down, which has become all too common. There is a general sense that I "don't belong" (not just socially, but within the shape and [...]
Re: Fixed Cacophony on my own this time (on Aug. 20, 2025, 11:29:29 p.m.)
The modern push to require "verification" is something which always worries me.
On a philosophical level, many of the cultural ideas we now consider essential started with people speaking out anonymously so I think making that impossible is a [...]
On a philosophical level, many of the cultural ideas we now consider essential started with people speaking out anonymously so I think making that impossible is a [...]
That Strange Feeling of Isolation and Even Stranger Inceptions (on Aug. 19, 2025, 3:49:05 p.m.)
For the past several days, I have felt worse than usual. I am not sure what is suddenly shifting things, but I can tell that I am having a rougher time than recent days. I almost feel as though the sense of eternal despair is creeping up around [...]
Re: Fixed Cacophony on my own this time (on Aug. 16, 2025, 11:33:27 a.m.)
Hmm, that is an odd one but I suspect that the update forced Cacophony to stop while saving back state so it corrupted it. Good to hear that you were able to patch that up. I keep thinking I should do something to improve that but the difficulty [...]
Discussions of Art and Meaning (on Aug. 13, 2025, 2:51:12 p.m.)
After completing Serial Experiments Lain, I found myself needing more ideas around this. The anime has a story, but it is heavier in ideas than plot or even character development.
So, I looked around online and found a few video essays arguing [...]
So, I looked around online and found a few video essays arguing [...]