It seems as though I always feel tired, through much of the afternoon and evening, most days. The strange thing is that I can easily go out and walk for a few hours, feeling completely awake and comfortable while passing everyone I walk past, then come home and pass out minutes after having a bite to eat and feel like a zombie until late in the evening.

While the constant exhaustion would make me wonder about a health issue, the fact that I don't get tired while actually being physically active leads me to suspect that this is actually boredom. When my body stops and my mind isn't engaged, why bother being conscious?

Speaking of mental engagement, the new OctoberProject "passive entity" design (dropped item stacks and eventually weapons) seems to be mostly working. I just need to cut-over existing storage mutations to spawn these instead of just using the "inventory of the empty block" (which will be mostly a big change to tests, I suspect). There is still a lot to go, before the next release, but this is moving along. I just hope that it isn't a bad idea since the current approach is low-cost and doesn't require item despawning but it just doesn't feel "alive" enough, the way items being entities will. It seems like the right thing for some future flexibility, at least.

Beyond all of this, I feel as though I am developing a certain sort of paranoia where I start to assume that people don't get back to me because they don't like me or find me somehow "too much" as I worry that I am generally "too intense": I will quickly respond to any contact and I probably talk too much whenever I communicate with anyone. Plus, I don't know if my opinions bother people or if my interests are too alien. I am not sure if I changed, if the world changed, or if everything is fine and I am just over-thinking this (which is also something I have always tended to do).

Of course, my thoughts are unpleasant, these days, so none of that helps,
...Nights